We got an issue in America. Too many good docs are gettin' out of business. Too many OB/GYNs aren't able to practice their love with women all across this country.
—George W. Bush, 6 Sep 2004

yea. bushisms. gotta love them.

i was going to go with one of those love or life or liberty quotes..but hey...a bushism is good. the only life and liberty quote i really like is 'live free or die'..not taken to any extremes of course. whats the point of living if you feel like your trapped.

speaking of something like what i'm going to say....i was talkin to a guy today who thinks that one of the only ways he will be happy is to be in a relationship. now i think that is a bunch of bullshit. you should be able to be happy without having to rely on someone else. if you go into a relationship feelin like your life sux and depressed, then your relationship will probably not be as good as it could have, and any happiness your feeling is just a cover up...so i ased this young man what made him happy...and he couldnt' really give me an answer. so i told him i luv to go bike riding and hiking and to the gym and reading..etc....and that all makes me happy and confident...but apparently the poor guy relies totally on 'chicks'. now i would never entrust all of my happiness to a guy. thats just suicide. they will undoubtedly do something to piss you off. and then if you have nothing else but them to make you happy, your pretty much screwed. its far better off to control yourself what makes you happy, because lets say that someone that could be in your life pisses you off..you can go bike riding and suddenly everythig is perfectly wonderful. that just sort of pissed me off when he said that. so i think relying on someone else(esp. a romantic someone else) to make you feel good and happy about yourself is complete bullshit.

not to get to sappy issues and crap like that..but i was wondering sometime today on my way to the big E what it feels like to have someone love you. family friends exempt. jeff and i were together for 2yrs 8months and i don't think he ever loved me. he never said he did, but sometimes ppl don't say those things, but he never even looked at me like he could have. i loved him once. never told him. i was afraid, because things with the college issue were rocky and i decided that it would just make things worse for me if i told him. but if he had any sense..which he has lil of...he would have known. now i'm starting to get off track..which i do...a lot. so back to wonderin....i decided that i'd quite enjoy someone to like me lots and show it. because whats the point if you don't right. so i've decided that the next young man who has the pleasure of dating me will be more expressive with his feelings and appreciative of me. that is why i can say 'the pleasure of' because he should feel priveleged....as should i...but thats how it should work. its not conceited, if thats what you were thinking.

i wish i had something wicked funny to write about..i'm trying to relay the camping stories to some friends..but i can't..its just too much fun to relay in conversation....a had to be there type of bullshit. i guess maybe since i haven't written consistantly for a long time i lost that a lil..it'll come back tho. i'll be a funny ass dland entry writer...no word of a lie. yo.

o and hopefully....for the sake of americans everywhere....OB/GYNs will again be able to continue their practice of lovin women across the UNITED states.

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